Broken

Back to being disciplined again….I get off track so easily...very frustrating. You miss a day and whoosh...a week has gone bye and I do mean bye as in gone.  It's so natural to just go with the flow around you. Thinking of 1 Corinthians 9:27 this morning. "Instead, I discipline my body and bring it under strict control, so that after preaching to others, I myself will not be disqualified."

Balancing this with grace and understanding underlining reasons for actions is also important. But I truly believe it starts with the simple act of prayer. To not rely on your own strength but on God's. To seek Him first and not 'lean' on my own understanding. Pray God gives me the strength and desire to take care of my body better. To pray that God will give me a desire to pray, to read my Bible. To pray that God will help me hand over the things I cannot control and that are best to put into His hands....because I make a mess of the things I attempt to control.

These are the hard lessons in life and there are absolutely no quick answers, no checklist, no self-help books or teachers. It's simply surrendering to Christ and His lordship. To pray for Him to instill in me a humble heart, and obedient heart, a heart that lives in knowing His love grace and mercy are there always. That the times I do 'fall' short He already knows those times and if....and if I am willing to give Him my failures He will do great things with them....things I cannot do myself.

This morning I am broken.  I have looked at my weakness and acknowledged my inability.  I   give you this veiled glimpse at my heart not to prop myself up as some kind of saint, or for sympathy. I share this so that you know I am a sinner just like you, I struggle every day of my life just like you and if you are reading this know you are not alone, you have not been abandoned you are human. There is hope, eternal hope, hope that will not disappoint you or forsake you, the Hope of Christ is waiting for you. To love you and forgive you and to restore you. Open your heart to Him and don't look back, trust Him with your heart and soul and don't look back. Don't look back at the would of, could of and the should of's, look to Jesus and focus on Him and Him alone and He will do great things. God is good!