Dethroned By Grace

Since I started this blog I have been trying to come up with a name I would like. It has been difficult to find a name that best describes the way I think and feel about my relationship with Christ. In my life there are two battles I constantly have, self and grace. I battle self on many fronts and I love sitting on the throne of my life. I love to have all my energy directed towards my interest, it comes by naturally. So what do I do with the verses like “nobody should seek his own good?”-(1 Cor 10:24) In fact there are a bunch of these verses (Jn 8:50, 1Co 10:33, Rom 2:8, Php 1:17, Jas 3:14, Jas 3:16) all these verses express thoughts against doing things for yourself. I am to surrender my life to Christ; I am to allow him to sit upon the throne of my life. I am to submit to his authority and allow him to guide my interest, my life. Isn’t this taught in the four spiritual laws, by campus crusade? This looks great on paper, but reality is something else entirely. I find myself having to fight to keep Jesus on the throne of my life. It’s a daily struggle, sometimes its minute by minute, sometime it’s impossible.

So here comes the second battle, grace. I battle to accept God’s grace when I “dethrone” Christ and take over leadership of my life. After things start to go wrong, I realize what I have done and I repent, handing back over the “keys” to my kingdom, I beg for forgiveness. I beg God to take away the desire to dethrone the King…only to hear the words told to Paul echo in my ear “my grace is sufficient for you.” Accepting grace can be painful and at times very humbling. Perhaps this is what it’s all about, humility. Perhaps this is what God wanted from the very beginning…to humility give up the throne and to humbly accept grace I don’t deserve.

So here is the name to my blog, “Dethroned by Grace”…

-ps

Today's Reading: Genesis: 23,24 Matt 8